Losing my Patience..

Big mom fail.

H after the three hour long nap he took...

I've been losing my patience lately with my son.

Like walk away lose my patience because he's absolutely driving me up a wall.

This makes me feel like crap.   I'm home all summer long with him, I'm so lucky to have an opportunity and a career like this that allows me to spend so much time with him.

Hmmm... maybe that was a sign

Even at this very moment he's pulling on my arm and crying even though he's fed, changed, and has a gazillion toys to play with.

He's finally become a wicked Mommas boy.  Like to the point of drive Momma batty he's so clingy.

That maybe he wasn't feeling good?

I get what I ask for, I cuddle him to sleep, I go the second he cries at night (much to the displeasure of my husband, and against my pediatrician).  I enabled this little boy to become so attached so why am I losing it when he wants to hang on me?

This week has been a tough one, parenting wise.  Harrison has decided lately that he was going to change any and all routines that we may have had.  He's waking up at  5:15 for the day, then takes a nap at 6:45-7:00 and I am beyond getting back to sleep.  I guess I'm just exhausted, I'm trying to run errands day after day, which is so hard with a one year old that doesn't listen, and is in a screaming phase.  For example, going to the DMV resulted in me having to hold my kid by his armpits while they took my license picture, so he wouldn't run way.

Times like these give me a  new found respect for single parents.  How do they do it?  I can't even imagine the way they feel.

  So I suppose parts of me are frustrated based on lack of sleep, and the fact that my one year old son thinks it's still necessary to do multiple wake ups during the night.

Sighh...

Then I finally realized on Monday, (that things are not all about meeeee, me, me... you think I'd know this by now)  after a day of hell that maybe there was cause for this behavior, like maybe my son might be in some pain?

Duh.....

Mega mom fail.




He has twelve thousand sharp little razors trying to break through his gums, and I'm over here losing it because I think he's just being grumpy.

And all is well after a little bit of Oragel.

And a closing thought.   If I want to keep all my fingertips in tact, I need to go back to the Oragel sticks.

Baby and sleep... Apparently the only two things on my mind.

I don't get it.


I JUST don't GET it.

Harrison, if you are that tired why don't you continue to sleep through the morning?

Why do you insist upon waking up at 5:15, when Momma decides to drag you into bed, pretend like you're going to sleep for 45 minutes, then pop your head up ready to go for the day?

But, not only that.   After twenty minutes awake you're ready for a nap and Mommy is up for the day.

I was never one of those people that could 'sleep when the baby sleeps'.   I can't nap.  It drives me Crazy.

So now my beautiful son lies next to me on the couch while I type away and he snoozes.

I am beyond jealous.

I wonder what a full night of sleep, or uninterrupted sleep feels like.  I haven't slept for two years, sighhhh.
At least H does a bit better than his cousin.   My SIL is up 4-5 times a night with her one year old, talk about exhausted, I can't complain.

Now as i typed this post my son decided that the ten minute nap he took was sufficient for this morning.

He needs routine, I need to become more disciplined as a mother to enforce a routine, I think it would benefit all of us.

Perhaps this would've been best done months ago, and my 'free spirit' mentality of mommyhood has kicked me in the ass.

Grrrrrr

So I had written out a whole fantastic post from the lake house, about my secret twitter obsession and then bloggeroid decided to not post it and Lose the entire thing.

Damn Galaxy Tab, all I've had is trouble from you from the very beginning!

Essentially I wrote about where I've been spending a lot of online time lately, Twitter.    I've been meeting a lot of funny cool people, and finding out many woman have the same trains of thought as I do.

The thing about my twitter obsession is that I keep it secret.  Hubby knows I'm on twitter now, but doesn't even know what it is.   Hell, he just got on Facebook four months ago ( a whole other story in itself).

I find myself posting the things to twitter that pop into my mind and that I wouldn't post to Facebook because I would become that ridiculous over poster that everyone ends up blocking.

Needless to say I've really liked becoming a part of this new community in Twitter land and hope to extend this to the blogging world too.

Which is also something I've kept a secret as well.

My brother follows me on Twitter, I've thought about blocking him to some of my information.

Is that possible?

For me right now I'd rather stay 'anonymous', even though I've posted my face, my sons face, and my husbands face all over the internet.

I'm just not ready to let the family in yet.

Karma is a B....

It’s because I said it aloud.    (Note Bud light cans in background....classsssyy)

I totally jinxed myself.   My kid was up multiple times last night, and by multiple I mean at least four.   This is crazy!   I thought by a year old someone would be getting sleep.

I was right on some parts, the husband can sleep through anything.

It’s just so frustrating, he gets up and cries differently than just a whine, it’s a genuine upset cry.   Part of me thinks he’s having nightmares?   To be that upset but be able to go back to sleep, clearly not hungry then.

Aghhhh…. I guess I’ll sleep one day?


Summer vacation has started and as always I love it.   I absolutely love my job, a job where I can become a SAHM for pieces of time, but yet still have a chance to be part of the professional world.

One of my goals for this summer is to really get my butt in gear and get some things done for the craft fair I’m going to be part of this coming November.   I’m going to be doing hairpieces, my typical ‘sad face’ drawings as Husbands friends would peg them, and I’m going to just in general keep creating more art.

My art has gone by the wayside, obviously as infants are ridiculously time consuming.   Harrison is at the point now where even in trying to write this blog post he’s hanging off my legs, whining, and trying to rip all the keys off my laptop.

Maybe he’s a little tired from the lack of sleep he got last night??

My heart is full

I'm at a good spot.  The wedding is over, the baby shower is over.  So happy to be carefree and take day by day with my son.   To be honest I'm thinking I could do the whole stay at home mom gig.....

Ha  ya let's just see how this summer goes.

Up to Lake Winni tomorrow....

On a short note.  Have a new found respect for my husband.  He literally helped our son through his constipation.   T.M.i.   But our son was so clogged up Craig  ahhhhhh....aided him I'm getting himself relieved.  

What a good daddy.  

I literally walked into the aftermath scene that a gagging daddy couldn't handle.

It's crazy what will make you fall more in love with your husband because my heart melted a little bit when he told me what he had to do today.

What an amazing da da.

DIY Suds | Yellow Brick Home

This is something that I NEED to try, it looks amazing and super cheap, exactly my kind of thing!

DIY Suds | Yellow Brick Home

Baby Showers and a Wedding

I personally invested 10 times more DIY time with my best girlfriends baby shower than I did my own wedding.  I couldn't even tell you why.  I was excited to get married, but on the large scale, (110 people) I think it became almost intimidating to do anything DIY. 

The pressure, which was probably created by myself, got to me.  I'm an art teacher.  We're supposed to be creative. 

And I am, on most accounts.

But I had a brain freeze when it came to the wedding, and a COST freeze too. 

Things are expensive.

Especially fun vintage, things.  

Needless to say I got much more into planning my best girlfriends much smaller scale baby shower.   She found a wallpaper pattern she fell in love with and I took off from there.

I did bird seed heart shaped favors and took it a step further.  I hand stamped the paper bag it goes in, and decided it would be cute to clothespin it shut.  Well, why not go even further and make felt birds and add details to it with fabric paint.  

Ok... why not take it even further, spray paint branches, make felt birds to put on there, put birdseed in the vase to keep the branches sturdy, and heck ... look cute.

So I decided one more thing today and decided to make little flower pins to give to each person as well. 

I'm Done.   D. O. N. E.     .... DONE.    

Now just to finish that diaper cake I started.